Always looking

After something like six months thinking I was working on building a relationship, it’s now clear I’m not. So what to do next?

I’d really like to get drunk for a start. I sent a friend a text message yesterday morning asking him to come share a drink with me, but he hasn’t got back to me.

I feel like I need to be doing something. I have that “can’t sit still feeling”. I want to be moving on and find that next guy but at the same time I think the advice from others to not worry and stop looking is something I should also be considering.

I went to the movies yesterday and really enjoyed Prince Caspian and nervously admired actor William Moseley until I confirmed later that he was of a legal age for me to admire. It was the best blockbuster movie I’ve seen in a while.

I did some shopping, buying yet another video game, the PS2 version of Lego Star Wars II. This prompted me to clean my room up a bit so that I could get to the PS2. The game is fun and I wasted a good couple of hours playing it last night. I also gave FFVII a go but I wanted to finish FFIV before I start that one.

I’ve caught up on seven episodes of TF Animated, a new episode of Doctor Who and a new episode of ER. I borrowed two books and a bunch of comics from the library to read. I also started going through my drawers and sorting stuff out in to a keep pile (very small), a scan pile (big), and a throw out pile (very big). Now I’ve got to set up the scanner and get to work.

These are good distractions, and you’d think it would be enough… but it’s not. I’m still as I write this logged into the personals sites seeing who’s out there. I can’t stop looking for the only thing I want.