Just struggling

Since last weekend I’ve been blue. I saw a glimpse of what I wanted both the man I once wanted and a man happy in love the way I want to be.

On Saturday night I ran into the first guy whoever broke my heart and spent the rest of the night thinking how the companions I was with didn’t quite accept me for me.

On Sunday I spent the day with a guy who did accept me. We had a great time. But he was so much in love with someone, that it showed me what I was missing out on.

To see what I want, to be reminded what I’m missing out on, it’s been too much and I’ve not been able to process it properly.