Letting things slip in
12 July 2009I’m a bit annoyed at myself for doing something I didn’t want to just to get a guy’s attention. Unfortunately horniness beat out common sense and I bottomed for the guy. It was a lot of fun, a very hot encounter, and the guy even wants to catch up again for coffee. This doesn’t happen very often! But I still feel wrong for caving in instead of sticking to my guns and being consistent to myself.
I constantly chop and change, like something one minute and then next week I don’t or I changed my mind. I make mistakes (lots of them) good and bad. I am living a life and been on a journey. Maybe sometimes I give in to the chemical reactions inside my body. But they are my reactions and feelings and it was my body.
You should not feel wrong. Feel wrong if you deceive, hurt or assault another human being, but don’t feel wrong because you listen to your body or hormones and act on them. ( legally of course :-)
You know what… I don’t give a toss if I do because THAT’S WHO I AM.
Be who YOU are.
I totally agree with you Ben: be who you are
and definately give in to temptation if
your body screams for it! Why feel sorry now,
when you may feel sorry you didn’t, a few
years from now, when you come to that age
(like me) when you are so sorry about many
things! Love will come Paul, it may already have
arrived, but from reading your posts you don’t
seem like the guy who’s ready to open up for it!
Stop feeling so sorry for yourself: you get more
than just attention from others, and that’s
something most of us can only dream about!
I do get the attention, and wish I was twenty-2
again to give in and have a few hot nights, but
for me the last one was a year and a half ago:
it was one of the best ever, and I yearn for more,
but I’m very insecure about myself right now,
as you are sorry for yourself.. Let’s make a deal
and both stop!
Sorry I don’t comment as much..
Hug, Alexander
The sex was fine, what I am bothered by was my desperation that meant I allowed some random guy to make demands and that I followed them when I didn’t want to. That’s a sign of low self esteem and a dangerous precedent to be setting.
I am open to love, it’s all I long for, but it hasn’t arrived. All a guy has to do is smile and me and I’m ready to date him. The only thing I’m not open to is taking someone I’m not attracted to just to be with someone. I don’t want to settle.
The problem is I wasn’t who I am, I went against who I am so that some random guy would show me some attention. That’s what I feel bad about. How low will i lower myself trying to make someone like me?
I reckon you were exactly who you are… because you gave in. That’s who you are. You only lower yourself if forced. You weren’t forced to do anything. You did exactly what you did because you are you. Think about it :-)